Why do I keep trying?
Why do I keep holding on?
To a dream that doesn't want me
To a mother who has moved on
You have left me here to drown in my tears
Taught me how to never trust another
Taught me to never face my fears
Just to play it safe, and stay under the covers
Why do you continue to break my heart everyday?
And more important, why do I continue to let you?
I guess now it is safe to say
You are now the mother that I never knew
There are things that are more important now
In my life and in yours
Too bad, mine are here for the better
And yours are here for the worse
So now where does this leave us?
The same place we have always been?
Distant, unsheltered, alone and useless
Doesn't really matter, I'll just do what I always do: bare it and grin
I wonder every single day
If I will ever see the real you again
The mom that opened her arms to me
The one that was a God-given friend
Now, as I lay here alone in the dark
Exhausted from the battle that you have drug me through
I begin to ask God why you make loving you so hard
And why do I even still try to?
You have missed out on a lot in my life
Even though you have always been right there
But all that you left for me was an empty person
Who is too caught up in her own, to even care
I wish I could take these horrible, lonely feelings I have
And shove them inside of you
So then I can go on in my life and maybe be happy
And instead, I can be the daughter you never knew
Tiffany Jennings
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/the-daughter-you-never-knew/
