I Cry Because
I'm drowning in this darkness
it's consuming me I know.
I am scared to again be nothing
worthless and all alone.
My heart is slowly breaking
into little pieces everyday.
Every morning I wake without him
nothing will ever be the same.
At night when everyone is sleeping
I lay here and wish I could die.
Wishing to be released from my promise
knowing the answer I cry.
I cry because of how much I love him
I cry for the life that I knew.
I cry for the love that he gave me.
I cry because I don't want us to be through.
Yet still in the darkness I wonder
Why did God take him away?
I tried to be a good person.
It wasn't enough and now I will pay.
Please let him be happy
and forgive me for waisting his time.
Then release me form that promise
I don't want to live just to cry.
Without him
there is nothing but darkness.
No warmth, no laughter, no love.
Just this waist of a person
who's worthless
a mistake and a joke from above.
01/11/2007
Heather Kemper
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