So you wanna know everything about me?
You wanna know what goes on?
Well one thing you should know
Is that my love for you in gone
First things first
I cut my myself to deal with pain
And today after I spoke to you
I cut over and over again
Another thing about me
I have issues with self esteem
Because my innocence was ripped from me
I was raped at 13
I never feel good enough
With anything I do
And with of all people
I never feel good enough for you
I’m tortured with this hurt
Every single day
I’ve tried to explain it
But I don’t know what to say
More than anything it hurts
To think of how you treated Mum
And although you may not know it
I understand what went on
No ones ever f***ing good enough for you
Except your precious Vicky
Well know you’re faced with the consequences
Of what that’s done to me
If only you could see the scars
On my body and my soul
And how f***ing much it hurts
That you didn’t care when my innocence was stole
Over and over
Throughout my life
I’ve been hurt so damn much
You wonder why I turn to a knife
There’s been times when I’ve been so down
I’ve contemplated suicide
But you’ve never known
Cos my scars I hide
There’s so much more to say
That I just can’t explain
So many times that you have hurt me
Over and over again
But I’ve been in so much pain
Pain that you never saw
And this has tipped me over the edge
I don’t wanna be here anymore
Amelie Anonymous
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