Why did you do this to me? Because of you I'll always remember why all of my relationships fail. You've scarred me. You made my life constant pain, you've made me have such a strong feeling of hate for you. I know you hate yourself, you told me that you'll never be a man. Yet you're an ass to me every time you talk to me. I kept it a secret for about 7 YEARS! ! ! ! At least you admitted your wrong doing. The pain will always be there, but it's dulling. I'm starting to forgive you... I know it caused just as much pain for you, as it did for me. Courtland... I still love you, you're my brother, we're family...
In much love (and hate) I can't wait to see you this February... I hope you'll be there for my birthday.
