You,
Flicka,
the horse-angel
of my dreams
and my reality
of twenty and a half years together,
and my unabated joys,
left this earth
eleven years ago
yesterday
after thirty-seven and a half years
that you blessed this earth.
All those who met you
instantly felt your love
for all humanity and living creatures.
Horses and dogs and cats and ducks
and people
were drawn to you
and automatically were unafraid of you
and loved you
as you loved them.
We had all sorts of conversations
about succulent grass
and how the rotation of the earth
on its tilted axis
causes day and night
and how the revolution of the earth
around the sun
causes the seasons
and I miss those conversations so much.
Nobody else listens to me as you did
nor nuzzles me in agreement.
I forever feel your forever love
every day
in the sky and cloud messages
you and Tigger and Daisy paint me
as you all gambol across the sky.
Forgive me my darling horse
that I still cry my eyes out
without you.
I know
that you know
that I don’t begrudge you your happiness in Heaven
and know that you and Tigger and Daisy
will await me when I join you,
but my sweet, sweet, horse,
it is so difficult without you.
Time doesn’t heal.
(29 April 2013)
Diana van den Berg
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/eleven-years-ago-yesterday/
