AWAY WITH THE DAWN
If only I knew what was happening
Maybe I could conform
Maybe I could rise from former ashes
Of numerous former selves
To a new being.
But I don’t understand,
I’m not sure I ever did
And it’s been so many years.
If the dark wasn’t so all encompassing
If I knew which way was north
Which way was up and away
From this land of shadows
Perhaps I would fly
But my wings are broken
Too far to fix
And I am not a genius.
If there wasn’t so much time
Long hours, long nights
With the sudden sunrise
Glaring out the scarlet day in fear.
If I could see beyond the boundaries of time and time and time
And through to space
Maybe I would not be trapped
But I am, and I can’t get out.
If I hadn’t trapped myself, where would I be?
Some happier being with no notion of reality
I sat down on Halloween and decided to cry.
Life is too long, death too far away
And there are too many choices.
I want to get up
Walk far away into the dark of the woods
And fade away with the dawn.
That dawn never comes.
Tallie Pascoe
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/away-with-the-dawn/
