I the one who always was,
The one with all the friends.
I was the one who always was,
Following latest fashion trends.
I loved parties and friends too,
Laughing loudly and making jokes.
Indulging in never ending friendships,
And the family likeness too.
But time passed and things got hectic,
In a way, no one would guess.
The likelihood of being in the same place,
At the same time got less.
The likelihood of having to figure things out,
Took predence now.
Whereas there was one job, now there were a hundred.
Stress and weakening friendships resulted,
Bringing out more problems now.
It was in the heat of the sweat,
It was in the race to cut debt.
It was the struggle and it was the stress.
It was not the no, nor not the yes.
All this turned me into a recluse.
I wanted privacy.
No excuse.
For wanting just myself and this room.
Turned exciting to me,
I could now talk to this room happily,
With no interruptions and people talking loudly.
It occurred to me, it was still not the best it could be.
But now I realized that my inner self,
Could not be satisfied,
By being in either company,
Or partaking of privacy.
And when I looked inside that perfect place,
I found the answer to that oft sought query.
Between keeping company and relishing privacy,
That you're not alone,
When you're without friends.
And you're still not alone,
When you're needing privacy.
Because then you're on on your own.
Vera Sidhwa
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/do-you-require-company-or-do-you-require-privacy/
