a clear breath in
a black breath out
a contemplated action
regretted from the past
pursued for the future
a choice I am undecided
how to overcome the suicidal
the drugs, the temptations of this world
I knew this day would come
From the start I knew it would be the end
so badly I dreamed I could be free
free from this world and what it has made me
free from who we are
and who we need to be
all I wish is to be alone
now the time is hear
but with my fear and I cannot tear
stone cold heart and an ice cold fever
will send me back in time
to the first mistake I made
Shannon Snyder
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/regret-141/