Hatred from the inside,
From the outside.
Following my peers,
Living in homophobia of myself.
My parents never short of comments,
Sowing seeds of disapproval,
Budding into self hatred.
I repressed the desire to be myself,
Taunting boys in my own image,
A tortured soul,
Torturing souls.
Homophobic from the inside,
Not wanting to be me.
Why couldn't I be normal and love a girl named Susie,
Have 2.4 children and live happily ever after?
Lay at night self harming,
Wishing my desires away.
I detested my desire for cock,
Detested what I had become.
Would I carry the plague that was sent from god to rid us of our sins?
Never being able to give blood ‘cause of the high risk we carry.
I'm one of them that like it up the chute!
I was a boy lost in hatred of what I feared,
Fearing the love of another,
Homophobia from the within!
Joseph Tanner
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/homophobia-from-the-inside/
