I thought I could stay away
But I just couldn't bare it anymore
It was calling my name so I had to
I know I gave in
But I can't be strong
I never was and never will be
I knew it this strength wouldn't last
I'm weak as weak can be
I saw the knife one to many times
I tried to hold myself back
But I couldn't
And it felt good to see marks on me once again
To feel the pain
To feel alive
But now I want more and more its my addiction
I tried to kill it but it wouldn't die
It had me trapped and I couldn't get out
Suicide is no longer on my wish list
But I still feel alone
I still have this pain it lingers me
I wish I didn't have it
And I wish pain didn't exist
But it does and it hit me
I thought I could be happy
But I should know better than that
Cause pain follows me everywhere I go
And cutting is my addiction
I admit it now I want to do it more and more
Just to see the scars to feel alive
Sometimes addictions come and go
And I thought this one was gone
But it came back at my front door
And now its back to stay
Cutting is mine for always
Its an addiction and its hard to break
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