Darkness closing in on my soul... 
Evil consuming my heart... 
Thirst unbareable and the screams unreal and never-ending... 
Surrounded by Death and Darkness... 
Sorrow and Missery is the heart of my party and im the Death of The Game... 
Watching those i love die before my very eyes... 
Can't stop the death i cause... 
Can't control the thirst... 
This is not a phase, but a way of life that i simply cannot escape.... 
I Hate it with every breath i take and every piece of my shattered black heart.... 
Wat hurts the most is that no matter wat i do, my way of life will never change... 
I must sin to live... 
I wish to die, but only to find that im now alive... 
My Fate is to live in sin and the Blood and Darkness shall begin...
Black Rose Night
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