Some time ago  
I was on drugs 
Now I’m on nightmares 
The kind that kindly refuse to end 
Prone to dying, fed by rape 
Watch a pseudo-infested landscape 
Crimson streaks riding crevices and cracks 
Abovegound voices busily turn backs 
Full(er than usual)  of visitors unwanted 
Dying away, things once flaunted 
 
By this time 
I should be likened to the shaman 
Cascading across galaxies 
Parsecs beyond language 
Stars unfold, grains of sand 
Trust their secrets in my hand 
Aces and eights 
Stroked by fingers of raptured souls 
Cauldrons of hate 
Overflowing into bow(e) ls 
 
And I am left rigor mortis stiff 
Sewn mouth hangs in the balance 
Now imbibed by flesh decaying 
Subtly impeding the games they are playing 
Viscera receding around flowers they’re laying 
Burgundy woods surround  
A velvet carpets the ground 
Still like silt, the knowledge I know 
Dying ‘neath the seeds they sow 
Why I, unlike them, do not grow 
 
Only dissolve into it 
My constituents, of the earth 
Cold touch of bone  
Of flesh so rotten 
As welcome as spring morning 
Awake without warning 
Sick, sicker, sickest 
Turn your back, cut to the quickest 
And nobody save I has seen 
The worm is welcome, as always, he has been 
 
Bury me 
Leave me 
Forgive me 
Forget me 
Forget me 
Forget me
Peter Timothy McQueeny
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/dying-with-a-secret/