my heart is so heavy
my way hopelessly foggy
my smile; so shallow
my hopes; so hollow
my happiness incomplete
my dreams, not so sweet
my days not so jolly
for me, i feel sorry
even my tears are dry
how long can one cry?
after all this pain
what have i really gained?
i tried my very best
put all my abilities to test
'sorrow cant defeat me'
'successful, i will be'
hah! what a childish thought
my joy will have to rot
no matter what i do
i, myself am a prisoner too
truly happy I'll never be
don't be deceived by a smiling me
my world is sinking fast
i don't know how long I'll last
my heart is dying within
no one seems to notice it
maybe i'm too sensitive
this is how everyone lives
i try to run, to hide
open my mouth, smile wide
life is good, i say
my feelings, i never betray
huh! is that what i feel
on my heart's deepest seal
if i ever sit and think
my heart starts to sink
i try to hide from me
try to bury my own plee
ah - my heart is dying slowly
if others would understand it only!
Syeda Beenish Jalil
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/the-burden-on-my-heart/
