Standing in self-hatred,
drowning in my tears.
Looking back on my life,
what I've been through the past 13 years.
Living in a broken shadow,
everything I do and say,
wishing somehow things would change,
praying for a way.
Same old shit just another day,
Living this evil life that was created just for me
Starving for love, affection, & attention,
I know none of this is how it's reall supposed to be.
I try to be strong,
even though I feel so weak
Feel like just giving up,
but I won't accept that level of defeat
Pretend like I'm always happy,
although I'm never really okay
Waiting for this pain to end,
That I feel every stupid day.
It's hard to say what's wrong,
when nothings going right.
Hard to keep myself going,
when all i do is fight
This pain is never ending
it just goes on and on and on
It's all so unbelievably real,
I just wish it all was gone
Trying to pick myself up,
when I've fallen so far and hard
But I don't know where I'm going,
It's all so very dark
My heart is weak,
my emotions sore
I do my best to never let it show.
But deep down inside I feel like,
I'm dying and nobody knows.
A lot of fucked up thoughts,
run through my head constantly.
I just wish I didn't live,
this life of misery.
Candy Simpson
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/anger-213/
